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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Occupation...

...job title...job description...etc. This week Mark and I have been busily filling out enrolment forms for Lachie for Prep School which he is due to start next year. OMG...I can't believe I just wrote that! It scares the LIFE out of me!!!! Anyway, that's for another blog post :o) So, Mark was busily doing his bits on the forms and thinking he'd give me a hand and fill mine out for me (I was busy scrapping...isn't he a sweetie???) and he calls out, "What do I put for your occupation?"

Yuk. I hate having to answer this question. Why? I don't know really...maybe it has to do with the embarrassing fact that I have only ever had two "real" jobs in my entire 30yrs on this planet. Maybe it's because I have been a "professional" student for the last 10yrs doing unpaid work experience in the hope of gaining employment from it at the conclusion of my studies...until now, that is. Maybe it's the the fact that "Homemaker" or "Household Duties" are terms that I feel uncomfortable with labelling myself as...since when do we get paid in monetary terms to be a mother and wife anyway? Lol ;D Or maybe I feel ashamed that I don't fit squarely into ANY occupation, and I don't think I ever will?

I called back, "Let me think about it and I'll fill it out tomorrow."

So, I pondered...and pondered...and pondered. I'm not a student anymore. I am not currrently working in any occupation which I can define on a stupid form in one or two brief words. I am not just a "housewife", and I refuse to ever be. But there is one thing that has been constant in my life, and which I am pursuing a new career in. Art. I paint, I draw, I scrap, I write, I design, I create...I LOVE it, and I always have, and forever will. It's a part of me that I have ignored for so long, suppressed, put on hold to pursue an academic career that would never satisfy or whet that overwhelming drive to create that completes me and is responsible for my very presence in the world.

The next night Mark looked at the Prep School forms lying on the kitchen bench still untouched by myself. He called to me again, "What do you want me to write here for your occupation?"

"Artist", I answered.

That's what I am now, always have been, and always will be. Regardless.

And with the utterance of that one word, I felt complete, alive, at peace...for the very first time in my life.

12 Comments:

Blogger Shazz said...

love ya karen...

xo

7:20 AM  
Blogger NuttyScrapper said...

Artist. That's really cool!
Lou

1:44 PM  
Blogger Karen said...

Artist...absolutely! You go girl!

Karen
xox

2:32 PM  
Blogger Amber McAlpine said...

YAY for you Karen. Its so nice to finially find your place int he world.
....now dont be suprised if half way through the year the teacher says "we read on your form that your an artist, would you mind helping us with ...." LOL.

6:55 PM  
Anonymous Rach said...

Perfect.

10:01 PM  
Blogger Peta said...

Yeap I couldn't discribe you in any better word!! Perfectly you missy!!

6:57 PM  
Blogger Nicole Finlayson said...

Sensational post Karen. A perfect description. :)

11:05 PM  
Blogger Belinda said...

Why not Karen....an artist!!! Great post! I enjoy reading your blog so much!!

10:03 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Karen...You are not only a perfect *ARTIST* you are also a perfect, beautiful and definitely an honest *WRITER* I absolutely enjoyed reading your blog because you used exeptionally beautiful words..... I wish i can do that.... In my dreams.... Love all your lay out too..
Luv ya always,
Amiga, Del

4:08 AM  
Blogger Janelle Wind said...

Karen I totally understand your struggle for a title with what you do. I have struggled for years - when asked what is my job and I say patchwrk teacher they always say - Oh my Nanna does that! Being creative and doing what we do is so much more that a title and I think artist is perfect. Congratulations for recognising where your talents lie
x nellie

1:16 PM  
Blogger Chris Millar said...

Good on you Karen! And I'm glad that it made you feel at peace! I always say I'm a 'work at home mum' cause goodness knows it's all hard work!!! Fun, but relentless!

2:09 PM  
Blogger Lisa Harman said...

Karen the Artist.. I can honestly say I agree with that title. suits you to a T.. and is it not true that most artists are underpaid anyway.. so no change there. You just get fullfilment from your creations.

Good on Ya.

1:23 AM  

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